The arabic competition this year was interesting.. I wanted to participate in the arabic poetry reading but was placed in the writing category instead. I'v been arguing and complaining about wanting to do the reading and now that I'v finally gotten the chance I realized that I got really sick and freaked out when I stand in front of a crowd. Now TRYING to practice what I should be reading I'v realized that I'm screwing up when I try reading it to my family although I do fine when I'm reading it to myself in my room. If I cant read it right in front of my own family how will I be able to read it in front of my school?
Going to read it a few more times...
Maybe that'll help me read it properly when I really need to.
Now reading in front of my school... wondering what they'll be saying about me when I'm done. I'm such a paranoid freak. I got a lot of people in my school who don't like me because I'm the girl walking around with the koofiyeh. I hate receiving those 'disgusted' looks from certain groups of girls. Things aren't that bad here in the UAE... but that hate for us is still there. we're still the trespassers. I guess there's nothing I can do about it. I just really need to figure out how to face them... and now... before I present tomorrow.
I hope I don't freeze.